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Dissapative Structures
Colors and the Web
Blending East & West
On Blending of East and West
Dear Daddy,

I have really been enjoying your letters...great sermon on What do You Really Want? Good question to ask repeatedly and honestly.

If I have indicated in some way that I have become a Buddhist follower or expert of any kind, please excuse me...I am not. I have run onto some valid concepts etc. to which he seems to have ascribed, and also that I find very much in line with Jesus teachings. The semantics and perspective starting point seems to be the major differences. Like you said, we westerners have a difficult time understanding the eastern way of thinking, and I really believe that semantics has been a lot of the problem...how we interpret the words and their meaning. Some of the material that I have been studying, however, takes references from many different sources including Buddha, Jesus, and a lot from Paul. Other favorite sources seem to be the Rig Veda, the Bhagavad Gita, and the Stanzas of Dzyan, as well as the Yoga Sutras of Pantajali, the Kabbalah, and the I Ching.(One wonders how much and what of this material Jesus had access to and studied.) It seems to me that a study of the similarities instead of the differences must be of great value. Surely the idea that limiting God to some "particular form" is counter-indicative of all that we believe He is. Surely if we believe He has been "actively seeking" to communicate with us, the thread of truth could be found all the different religions commonalties. So many times it seems to me that the same idea has been stated, but just in the context of the area and time that it was revealed. It's really kind of funny how often we seem to try to create God in our own image instead of really attempting to perceive what it means the other way around. But here we are back to the discussion where all our perceptions are being colored by our emotions, past experience, and other thoughtforms.

I found it interesting when you made reference to the idea of the perception of our "inner being" as "only energy", and that the idea that "all we are is only energy in motion" is a limiting one. "Energy" has so many differentiations, connotations, and forms to me. You might as well say that all we are is "only spirit". It seems to me that spirit and energy have a lot in common. Both are mysterious, invisible, powerful, and much closer to our "definition" of God than anything else that I can think of. (and that there is a lot we don't understand about either one) Certainly there is an element of energy and mystery in Jesus' relationship to God. It also seems to make some sense that if we do believe that we are created in God's image (and I do), that spirit and energy would be some of the common factors that we might be able to look at for some clues about this relationship and getting on with this "righteousness" experience. In other words, What is God like in terms of energy and spirit, and how can I be a microcosmic reflection of that? How can I communicate with Him on those terms?

One of the eastern concepts that seems to cause a problem is the idea of the "impersonal Source" of which you spoke. I think a lot of our problem has more to do with the way "It" is defined. One of the customary eastern formulas for getting to a "definition" of what something "is" is by stating what it "is not". As I understand it (and that leaves a lot to be desired for sure) as we westerners have heard an eastern attempt to make statements about "It" without limiting "It" in any way, we have a tendency to interpret that definition as impersonal. But the more I read and study the relationship in their terms, the more it sounds like the same very personal, intimate, motivating, all-consuming relationship that Jesus spoke of and had with God. They speak of self-sacrifice, service, compassion, universal brotherhood, union beyond and encompassing individuality (not to the annihilation of the "I", but to the expansion of it beyond the merely personal aspect), intimacy to the point of total absorption...sounds pretty darn personal to me! How much more "in fellowship" can one get?!

The idea of the Trinity is still there...but more of a Father/Mother/Son thing. I must admit that I like the feminine aspect getting in on the ground floor. (I know, I know, it's all way beyond the male/female thing...but still...) The Son seems to be a natural result of the exchange and "tension" (boy they got that right) between the Father/Mother duality. The macrocosmic trinity has many microcosmic reflections in eastern thought...mental, emotional, physical...or spirit, soul, body...or past, present, future...or vibration, rhythm, stillness...or energy, matter, consciousness...lots of useful analogies when studied with seriousness. There is also something that I don't quite understand about the permutations of 3 (the different ways you can put the three parts together a,b,c,ab,ac,bc,abc) that results in 7 and has something to do with dimensions of consciousness. Like I said, I don't quite understand, but it appeals to the mathematician in me.

Another aspect of the eastern religions that has attracted me has been the kaon, the paradoxical relationships. This stems, of course, from the Father/Mother duality concept. Questions that are meant to "off-balance" our sense of rational mind and move us into a more intuitive dimensions definitely have their place and value. "What is the sound of one hand clapping?" is an example, and the relationship of dark and light, good and evil, yin and yang. The paradox between "infinite becoming" and the "eternal now" is another. Obviously, we can always use improvement. No matter how "righteous" we may get, there will always be another level of "perfection" that we need to work toward. It reminds me of calculus and "the limit as N tends toward infinity". You get into "degrees of infinity" that are relative to "how great a perspective" you are capable of perceiving, how much awareness you have accumulated, how far above the graph of the equation you can stand. (Smells of macrocosmic/microcosmic fractalness to be sure!) Yet, in the midst of this infinite becoming and diversity that encompasses so much of our lives, there stands the "eternal now", the eternal life of which all the "great ones" have spoken that is not dependent on "degrees of infinity". And of which they have assured us we each have access to regardless of our state of "becoming". Seems paradoxical to say the least and amazing grace for sure.

Please take all this in the spirit in which it is meant...that is to say not in an antagonistic or argumentative way or in any manner disrespectful of anything that you have said or taught me. I rather see it as an extension of the same, and that is how I have meant it. Anyway, it is interesting and enlightening to write it down, isn't it?

Love, Lisa
(Feb. 12, 1994)
On Dissipative Structures
Dear Daddy,

Well, here we are at summer solstice already! Isn't it amazing how time flies when you're having fun. Or, of course, the frog thing - time's fun when you're having flies. (that was so funny...I am already getting mileage out of it) I keep studying relativity to try to get a handle on time...but alas, it still eludes me! I have been trying to get around to writing this letter for weeks. Good grief, when did I ever have time to go to work?! I enjoyed the visit with Uncle Carl. It sounds like you had some great fishing and communion. I am glad.

I have been reading a lot of books recently, and I thought I'd bounce some of these ideas off of you. I don't have the holographic thing down yet, but here are some other interesting ideas until I grok it well enough to enunciate it better. Back to the reoccurring theme that suggests that all of our thoughts and feelings, and even ourselves essentially are waves of energy.

The Theory of Dissipative Structures was discovered or formulated by a guy named Ilya Prigogine and he won a Nobel Prize for it in the 80s. It is a theory about dynamic structures (any system that moves and changes and grows) that basically states that the more complex a system is, the more unstable it is because it requires more flux of energy to maintain it. Because of the movement and exchange of energy, when it breaks down, it is likely to reorganize and reestablish itself at a higher or more complex level. When it is perturbed, or disrupted in some way, then the parts have a tendency to come back together in new ways and form new patterns within the whole in a more complex, interactive form. Therefore, the reason that the system achieves coherence is because it is so unstable. Prikoshein even came up with the mathematical models and equations that would show why it would reorganize in the new, more complex way.

Water moves through a whirlpool and forms it at the same time. Energy moves through a dissipative structure and the dissipative structure is the energy...a flowing wholeness, highly organized and always in motion. The more energy that is required, the more vulnerable it is to changes within the system, thus the farther from equilibrium it is. Increased coherence (the more ways and places in which it is held together by energy) means increased instability, and that creates more potential for reordering. If the perturbation is minor, then the system will dampen it and go on the way it was. But if the perturbation is of a certain size and force, then it shakes up the pattern and causes it to reorder in some new, more complex way. Then the system is even more unstable because it is even more complex, and therefore it is even more vulnerable and therefore more likely to evolve. Evolution begets evolution and is built into the very nature of the complex system itself.

Well, what does this have to do with me, you ask, and why is she telling me all this? The answer is that you and everything else that moves and grows and changes is a dissipative structure. This is, in essence, the science of transformation. Human beings, our brains, emotions, thoughtforms, plants, animals, nations, the population, economics, society, the earth, the solar system, the universe...you name it and it is a dynamic, dissipative structure. You no doubt also recognize the fractalness of this idea...the "similarity across scale". And, this model can give us insight into how to look at many microcosmic and macrocosmic "problems".

For example, human beings grow through stress. We don't generally like stress or being "perturbed", but it does usually force us to reexamine who we are and what we are doing. Then a reorganization takes place that is (hopefully...ha!) of a higher order. The people we look to for help in those situations are not the ones who say "oh woe is you" and talk to us about how to get back to the way we were. They are the ones who will have suggestions and encouragement for growth and movement through the suffering toward transformation. Through the suffering, or what is sometimes called the "zones of annihilation", hopefully we reach an access to that which is beyond the world of opposites (that which attracts or repels us). And then, that which is beyond annihilation becomes clearer. Altered states of consciousness used for personal transformation, such as prayer or meditation, will, of course, assist and put us in contact with the Master Designer and Organizer. It is, in a sense however, the confronting of the pain and stress that generates the reordering processes in the brain that bring about the movement toward transformation. If we look at our pain and stress in that way, whole new dimensions can open up for us. With a little thought, whole new applications for healing ourselves can also become clear.

In another application, we can look at society or at the world as a dissipative structure. Because of the media, modes of travel, and possibilities of interaction we have the small world phenomenon. We are more complex and interlinked and unstable than ever before in history. Could we possibly look at the perturbations in society or on a world interaction level, or even environmentally as having this same transformative potential? It is at least somewhat encouraging.

A book that has come to my attention that looks interesting is AGELESS BODY, TIMELESS MIND. I noticed that Annie was reading it when we were at their house on one of our most recent visits. I saw an interview with the author, an east Indian doctor named Depok Chopra. He also wrote another called QUANTUM HEALING. I am ashamed to say that his name was somewhat alien and I do not remember it, but he was really neat. He had that wonderful Indian accent that I love to listen to. The basic premise was that the human being, as a dynamic energy system in constant flux, regularly reconstructs itself, and that this reconstruction can be orchestrated positively through realization of the timeless spirit which can be contacted by looking at the space between thoughts. From that perspective one programs the body into health and literally reconstructs it on an energy and chemical basis through thought and the energy/chemical effects of thought. Fascinating, although nothing new in concept, ("As a man thinketh, so he is") I liked the way he put it and it seemed very deliberate in ways I had not before considered. It made me want to read his books. It certainly fits into the dissipative structure model.

Another interesting interview I saw recently was with Maya Angeleau (the inaugural poet). She was talking about the power and tangibility of words- how they are things that literally come out and stick to the walls and get into our clothes and finally actually into us. How true that is and how you can feel the presence of it when you go into a place. I started thinking about it in my own home and in the conflicts with my kids. It is amazing to think about all the energies that fly around us every minute affecting our health, moods, energy, perspective. We are responsible for so much of it, as are our families, associates, etc. The Oneness of all things seems more and more tangible on so many levels. It has the feel and the perfume of truth.

I realize how addicted to my little routines I am. Walking on the back nine no longer seems optional, but absolutely essential to my health and sense of well being. It was absolutely awesome out there this morning! The pond is covered in lilies and yonky-pons (a form of water lily). Their perfume was intoxicating, and I sat down overlooking the water in a spot where the breeze was blowing the smell right at me. It was a blustery day, and the clouds were rolling through in such a way that the light and shade were dancing across the fairways and the water, lighting up a section here and there and making it luminous. The trees were singing "a song the wind remembers about the way the ocean sounds." (one of my favorite lines from Randy's songs) I was looking at the rainbows in the wall of water mist made by the sprinkler system back there. It struck me how the rainbow is there every morning waiting and invisible until the light comes through at just the right angle, and the sprinkler comes on, and then it appears. How much we are like that, too--invisible light waiting to manifest and be recognized. The whole morning was breath-taking and sacred.

It's also nice to have some creative space and I am singing, sewing, reading, meditating, and gardening. Hummingbird medicine (American Indian medicine totems...the joy of going from flower to flower) is another daily ritual that feels essential. The yard has been absolutely gorgeous with tons of roses, hibiscus, and other colors and perfumes. I heard a garden fairy song that I am trying to get down on tape. Caring for the roses teaches me so much--the energy of the flowers, the relationship with the plant itself, the nurturing and constant watching for and precautions against impurities, and of course just the communion of the beauty.

Well, so much for the update. It will take weeks to read this, I guess. We think of you so often, and miss you both. Take care of yourselves, and let us know what is happening and how you are. We love you.

Love, Lisa
(June 25,1994)
Colors and the Web
Dear Daddy,

Howdy! I have been reading the Secret Doctrine lately. Great Scott!!! What an amazing book! I am reading an abridgment, so as to make it a little easier, and a commentary by another guy, too. I can't help thinking about how this was the document that inspired and motivated so many of my writer "heroes"--Alice Bailey, Annie Bessant, C.W. Leadbeater, Krishnamurti...the list goes on. It's got to be worth a look, huh? I also finally have called the Lucis Trust (Alice Bailey's people) at the U.N. in New York. They seem interesting, and are sending me some info. I will let you know when it comes. It seems she wrote 24 books, including an autobiography. She was a member of the Theosophical Society at one time, and studied with them. They have a library similar to the Theosophical Society, and I will let you know about access if you are interested. There is some major "meat" here, don't you think? Turning 40 seems to have me asking the "What is the meaning of life" question with great intensity, and with a sincere need to actualize it in an everyday, very cognitive way. In the infamous words of Josh Perry at five "Sometimes it's just time to get on with it." anyway... here we go...

I had a friend who was having some emotional and physical problems. I attempted to look at and evaluate her aura to try to see what was going on and to help if I could. The colors seemed very "hot" -bright gold, reds, and oranges. I can remember thinking that they needed cooling off, and recommending blue, green, and rose. In my therapeutic touch experience and research, blue is often used for cooling and soothing, green is a color of healing and rebirth and "minty" cooling, and rose is a color of the essence of love and has a calming and purifying effect. Violet purple is another good color, although it seems to have a stimulating effect as well as soothing. None of this means that I think yellows and golds are not good colors, quite the contrary. (some of my best friends are yellow and gold) It just seemed to me that it was out of balance.

In all the research that I have studied a smooth, balanced, even current is advised for the energy body. When we visualize a current within, we can use that concept. Free flowing pathways will be unlikely to cause the "jerks" and blockages that she was suffering. Blockages can be of many natures and sizes, but all essentially break the free flow and exchange of energy from one area of the energy body to another. They can cause illness or dis-ease if left for a long period of time. But one can cleanse the energy body and remove blockages with exercise, meditation, visualization of the free overflowing current, and purification through a disciplined lifestyle that includes honest, sincere and fearless self-evaluation. Then not only is the person herself energized by the free exchange, but also those around her and her environment will receive benefit.

These "strands" of energy are part of the Great Web in which "we all live and move and have our being". We are all intricately connected as we are all atoms in the One Great Life. We must constantly be aware that nothing we do is without its implications and effects on all of those around us and closely associated to us through the Web.

As far as the "form of man" goes- could it be the form of man "perfected". Perhaps that is something of how we perceive Jesus, Buddha (there have been others). The "infinite becoming" we go through to try to move toward "perfection" definitely has its place. And yet there is the paradox between "infinite becoming" and the "eternal now"--the dimension accessible to each of us (we are promised by the "great ones") that has naught to do with "becoming". It is not that "becoming" is not part of our lives. Surely it is as we have placed ourselves in time-space. It is evolution, growth, expansion, part of what makes life good. But there is another "space" accessible--eternal life that has nothing to do with duration or infinite time. Could this be what Don Juan meant, and he was shaking Carlos up so he could see it?

As far as what I have said, take it for whatever value you find in it. If you find none, so be it, disregard it. If you find something of worth or help, that was my intention. Please take it in that spirit.

Love Lisa
(Feb. 15, 1995)