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Dissapative Structures
Divine Humor
Colors and the Web
Blending East & West
On Desirelessness
Holographic Universe
On Divine Humor
Dear Daddy,
    I have been toying with the idea that the paradoxes are examples of divine humor. The statement then becomes, "Life is a cosmic joke. Did you get it?"
    I think that the dissipative structure theory has similarities to the Law of Sacrifice, which is depicted most intensely in the cross and resurrection. The idea that we must ultimately give up what we know as "reality" or some "form" that we are attached to in order to open ourselves up to the possibility of "restructuring on a higher level of consciousness" seems to be at least partially applicable. The cross and resurrection could be in some ways an enactment of the theory of dissipative structures. A famous man said, "God becomes and disbecomes." And then there is one definition of make sacred.
    I have also been looking at what is meant by Divine or Cosmic Law. The Eastern philosophies speak of them often.
    "A law is but the effect of the continued intelligent activity of the Life aspect as it works in conjunction with matter." (the Tibetan)
    "Law rules throughout the universe, a Law which is not intelligent but Intelligence."
    When we work with cosmic law, we are in touch with and responding to Divine Mind. Awareness and cooperation with the laws puts us in line with and in service of The Plan. It has been said that one does not break cosmic law, but that we frequently fling ourselves upon it and must then deal with the consequences.
    I really have enjoyed looking into The Bhagavad-Gita. What a beautiful little book. In it, Krishna (the Christ figure in the story) has been explaining to Arjuna what He (God) really is. Arjuna is inspired, listening intently, trying to comprehend, devoted. Arjuna finally says, "Yes, I see, I love you Krishna! Show me your power and glory and majesty face to face. I am ready!" (Arjuna is a warrior) So Krishna agrees and reveals His true form, and it scares the dickens out of Arjuna. He finally begs Krishna to go back to His cloaked more human form because he can't take the intensity of God revealed. It is so funny how we so often think that we would like to see God face to face, and yet if we did it would scare the *#@?! out of us. It reminds me of standing on the top of a mountain pass and being so inspired and thrilled and thinking, "This is so magnificent! I am ready to see God face to face right now in all His power and glory! I can take it! Reveal Yourself to me! Bring it on!" And then within moments a storm rolls in and sends you scurrying down the mountain chanting, "I respect the power of the mountain!" And you head for a place where the awesome power and intensity won't be quite so much to handle. You flee back to a "more manageable position". If that is not divine humor, I don't know what is.
Love, Lisa
On The Holographic Universe
Dear Daddy,
    Thanks for your response. I enjoy the interaction. I do not pretend to understand these theories fully, so inevitably there will be questions that I cannot answer. But I will do my best. I only listened to a tape with some introduction to dissipative structures, and the tape was really about the Holographic Universe theory. However, I do know that Prikoshein's book (one of them at least) is called "On Being and Becoming" and he is something of a modern day mystic. Should be some interesting reading...I will have to put it on my list and get back to you on that. As far as the atomic bomb example goes, I feel certain that there must be a lot of restructuring that takes place during and after the explosion. After reading "The Tao of Physics" I can only vaguely imagine some of what the patterns of the restructuring energy must remember all the little interactions of the sub-subatomic particles. Perhaps the new more complex resulting structure is just out of the realm of our comprehension or accessibility. It is possible that he addresses that in the book...I don't know. Of course, then there would be the study of all the resulting shifts in energy and environment after an explosion, and I guess that might be revealing, though it certainly is a horrifying thought. I am not at all sure. I have a tendency to think that if I do not understand the analogies it is from a lack of my own ability to cognize more than an infallibility on the part of the theory and theorist. However, we realize that any model is just that... a model. That it will not totally "define" or "reveal" absolute truth is a given. There will always be a more comprehensive theory to follow it, and perhaps disprove it or encompass it. That is evolution of consciousness, and I suspect we will never reach the apex of that climb, eh?? Another possibility that I entertain when I'm not "getting the picture" is that I am being too microscopic or limited in my approach. For example, yes, civilizations have broken down and dissolved, yet something evolved out of them and went on, as you pointed out. Perhaps I need a more comprehensive/macrocosmic view of the "structure". Perhaps the structure that I thought I was considering is really just the perturbation?? It should have applications "across scale" though. It does everything. However, the idea that energy moves to a higher, more subtle "pure level" (as you suggested about the atomic explosion) is one of the premises of the Holographic Universe theory.
    David Bohm is the theorist on this one, but he says that he is not really proposing anything new...that it has all been said by the ancient wisdom of the mystics and the sages (sounds like Tao of Physics again). He just interprets it into the modern day language and format of physics. He was a renowned physicist and protegee of Einstien. He was killed several years ago in a car accident. I have enjoyed some tapes of dialogues between him and other scientists and some with Kristnamurti. (Kristnamurti is another one who talks about the "space between thoughts" do we do that indeed!) He and Kristnamurti are both big believers in dialogue as a great avenue of understanding. They say that the formulation and enunciation and reception of the thoughtforms for exchange helps to clarify and modify one's system of thought...isn't that the Socratic method of teaching? (I guess that's what we are doing here, eh?)
    The basic idea that I have gotten so far from this theory is that each part is a reflection of the Whole, and that the whole may be found within each part. Sounds like we are back to the microcosmic/macrocosmic relationship, doesn't it? He says that the universe is like a hologram. So, in order to understand what that means, we need to have some idea of the components and structure of a hologram. I have read several explanations, and I do not pretend to understand this fully, but here is something of the idea.
    One guy uses the analogy of a pizza pan full of water. You drop three pebbles into the water and you have the ability to freeze the water instantly so that the pattern of the ripples is frozen into the ice. The interaction of the ripple patterns creates information that can be reconstructed...there is a uniform behavior that gives you information about how the pebbles were dropped into the pan. Then you can take the ice out of the pan and break it into a bunch of pieces and each piece will contain enough information about the total picture to reconstruct it.
    To construct a hologram you need two beams of light. (lasers) One beam will bounce off the object that you want as a hologram, and the other beam will shine directly onto the special photographic plate or film. The interference patterns of those two light sources will interact on the plate. They swirl around and do not look like anything in particular if you are looking at the plate. If, however, you shine a laser beam through the plate of film, the object will be reproduced in the 3-dimensional form of a hologram. And further more, if you tear the plate apart and shine the beam of light through any of the pieces, the whole object can be reproduced. So, in essence, it is all vibrations, and the "reading" of those vibrations by the light source. And each part contains the patterns for the whole picture.
    So you have these "two levels of reality" in the universe. You have the object being portrayed... things that we see, what the materialists consider to be the only reality, or matter. This Bohm calls the explicate order. And you have the "patterns on the photographic film", or those patterns that appear nonsensical or are not readily visible but which contain the pictures. This underlying level of reality is a deeper order of existence, says Bohm... a vast, more primary level that gives birth to all the objects and appearances in the physical world just like the film gives birth to the hologram. This he calls the implicate order (or the order that is hidden). There is a constant enfolding/unfolding process going on between these two levels. Under the reality that we see and experience daily, there is a deeper reality that generates it.
    On the quantum physics level (which was Bohm's field of work), do you remember the controversy about the particle/wave paradox? (sometimes it has the properties of a particle, and sometimes the properties of a wave...or you are looking at a particle, and then it disappears and starts acting like a wave, and then reappears again as a particle) Bohm says that the particle does not disappear but is just enfolded back into the deeper order from which it sprang, and then is unfolded again in the constant dance. He calls this enfolding/unfolding process holomovement.
    Einstein said that space and time are not separate, but part of the space-time continuum. Bohm says that everything is part of a continuum. Ultimately even the implicate/explicate orders blend into one another and into one unbroken, enormous "thing" extending into the countless varieties of existence. Even the implicate order in all it's vastness is not the end of things, but there are other orders beyond it...infinite stages of further, more subtle development. We have "relatively independent subtotalities" which are the result of eddies and whirlpools of the inner reality.
    Since every piece holds the whole picture, if we know how to access it, the entire cosmos lies within every cell. Life and intelligence are present in not only matter, but in space, time, energy, the fabric of the universe, and the holomovement. Every region of space is "awash" with different kinds of fields composed of waves of varying lengths. Each wave has some energy. Space is filled with light and electromagnetic waves that criss-cross and interfere with each other. All particles are waves, so all objects and everything else is composed of interference patterns.
    Our brains mathematically reconstruct reality by interpreting frequencies that are ultimately projections from the deeper order of existence that is beyond both time and space. The brain is a hologram enfolded in a holographic universe. Or, it could be expressed with the analogy that the brain is like the laser beam that shines through the film to interpret the patterns. As it turns out, you can preserve the interference patterns of more than one hologram on the same film by using various different angles of projection of the laser beams. Therefore, depending on the direction and frequency of the beam that you send through the film, a different hologram will appear. So consciousness literally becomes the co-creator of the reality portrayed depending upon its "angle of perception". That is totally in line with relativity theory.
    So this does not mean that if I am looking at a tree, it is not really there. The tree is there on multidimensional levels. It just means that I am seeing a "cross-section" of the tree depending on the level of consciousness that I am tuned into. If the brain is a decoder of sorts, then it can be tuned to different states or frequencies of consciousness, and I will see different levels of "tree reality" depending upon which one I'm on. Therefore, mind contributes to the phenomenon of reality itself, not just to the knowledge of it. We can study the effects of the levels of consciousness and experiment with them thereby becoming more aware and "conscious" multidimensionally. Prayer and meditation are examples of avenues of that.
    Consciousness itself is an example of undivided, flowing movement. The ebb and flow of it is not precisely definable, but it can be seen as a deeper, more fundamental reality out of which our thoughts and ideas unfold. Thoughts and ideas are like ripples, eddies and whirlpools...some will reoccur or persist in a more or less stable way while others vanish as fast as they appear. Some vortexes of thought can be extremely stable and even resistant to change. If someone challenges these thought patterns we may react like addicts and throw up all kinds of barriers of resistance, thereby blocking our potential for access to and interaction with the flowing whole.
    I think the idea of "looking at the space between thoughts" is contained here. It has something to do with getting in touch with a level of reality that is beyond thought and the decoding process, and yet which encompasses it at the same time. It is beyond time and space and interpretation. It is the level of Oneness and Union with the Whole. It is beyond even the deciphering of what that means, and moves to the actual realization and experience of it. Either the Buddhists or the yoga sutras (I don't remember which...maybe both) talk about getting in touch with the detached observer...that perspective which is beyond the "emersion" in that which is being observed. It is a more comprehensive, objective perspective. We are one with the Source of it all and therefore have access if we will just tune in to the right frequency is one way of looking at it. Another way would be to go beyond the attempt of tuning at that which is beyond tuning. The experience of it is completely discernible, as nebulous as it may sound, and one KNOWS when he has been touched by IT, even if that touch seems ever so brief. Krishnamurti says that as soon as we realize we are experiencing it we have a tendency to lose the awareness because we start thinking about how to hold on to it. As far as what one is looking for...I would have to say it is the purest, most reachable awareness of the presence of God, beyond the limitations of our thought-models of Him/It.
    The implications are infinite here. I guess you can see why it took me so long to write this letter. There is much more, but that's enough for now.
Love Lisa
(July 5,1994)
On Desirelessness
Dear Daddy,
    I had been intending to organize my thoughts on desirelessness, so I thought I would do it in a letter to you. I think that the problem that we westerners have with this idea is that we have a tendency to equate it with apathy. As I understand it, that is not at all what it is supposed to mean. All of the books that I have studied on the Yoga Sutras (which are Hindu-oriented as you said) have been filled with pages and pages of aspirations toward goodness and perfection "as your father in heaven is perfect". They are filled with resolution and steps toward getting in touch with yourself as spirit, getting in line with God's plan, understanding your part, getting over obstacles that keep you from being who you mean to be, and getting on with the thoughts and actions that put you in rapport and communion with God and His work. Sounds far from apathetic to me! Yet desirelessness seem to be integral to the process and therefore worth looking into and trying to grasp what is meant by it.
    It seems to have to do with balance and stillness. A "Be still and know that I am God" kind of thing. There is a metaphor about how the "emotional body" is like a body of water. When it is still it is very clear and all that is "above" it can be reflected with great clarity and beauty on its surface. But when it is agitated by a movement of some kind, the surface becomes clouded and the reflection is distorted and less comprehensible. Desire seems to be something like the wind that blows across the water and disrupts its ability to reflect with purity and clarity. The "picture from above" is lost in the ripples, and the surface of the water takes on the characteristics of the waves themselves instead of the reflection.
    This seems to be a good analogy when we think of our thoughts and feelings as waves of energy. What if all of life and perception is really vibration or energy of one kind or another. "In the beginning was the Word...and without him was not anything made that was made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men."--both sound and light are vibration or a form of energy, and Einstein proved that matter and energy are the same in different form. Obviously we affect and even control the energy that is available to us through our thoughts and feelings, and our perception of reality and our health are literally molded or "shrouded" or "colored" by them. I think the idea of desirelessness has to do with the idea that if the "currents" of the thoughts and emotions were still, then the "reflection of God" that we are meant to be would be clearer, purer, and more "present with us."
    When we desire something, there is movement, and a sense that everything that we need is not already present.( And then there is the idea that all of what we think are our "needs" are really distortions of our need for God anyway.) Whether what we desire is "good" or "bad", it still sets up a distortion and the "surface of the water takes on the characteristics of the waves instead of the reflection."
    This is certainly not to say that we shouldn't think or feel, but I think maybe it has to do with the idea that if we are receptive enough that higher, more perceptive thoughts and feelings will have an opportunity to filter down into our lives from God that otherwise would go unnoticed if we were caught up in our desire currents. And then the water will be able to reflect and catch the glimmer of those. The still, small voice (also referred to as the Voice of the Silence) is all to often lost in the clamor of our desires, and all the games we play to fulfill them.
    This is so disgustingly clear and illustrated by my Christmas holidays. The "things" that I desired were not bad. I wanted happy family time with the boys, help and companionship from Jim, and some sort of a religious experience for them and for me. But the more I wanted it, the more they rebelled and resisted or were oblivious. I let the currents of those unfulfilled desires make me depressed and disillusioned and keep me from really perceiving anything of value for days. As soon as I let go of it and got on with life I was fine, but I wasted much of my holiday in the process. I hope that I can remember to be more "desireless" this year.
    I think it has to do with balance, and peace with where we are. We realize that we are not perfect, yet we trust God and with all the comings and goings and cycles and evolutions. We do the next thing in faith and with whatever insight we have. None of this is alien to you or your beliefs. I have heard you say it all before, but perhaps the semantics just got in the way. It seems perhaps to mean the same things. It also smells of the same fragrance as dethroning oneself to let God and God's "currents" take over one's life, and that surely has a familiar ring.
    Anyway, I have been reading "The Fire Within" to see how I might be able to relate and find some commonalties that reach beyond the semantics of it. Amazingly enough, they were there... but that's a different letter. Love to you both, and to Grandmama.
Love, Lisa
(January 22, 1994)
Dear Daddy,
    More wandering on the back nine. There were lots of dragonflies out there today. They were a million beautiful iridescent colors of blue, green and purple. In animal totem medicine they speak of magic and elementals, fairies and that level where we create our own reality. I watched them over a little water hole, darting and gossamer.
    The egrets were out in flocks, too, flying silently up the pass over the pond. The light from the low, early morning sun catches their white wings and speaks of peace and purity and angel wings, and colors them ever so slightly with a peachy caste. And the red-winged blackbird flies by with a flash of red and a beautiful song.
    I have also been reading MINDFULLNESS: THE PATH TO THE DEATHLESS. I wrote the Buddhist group in Dallas and they sent it to me. I am enjoying it. Dane turned me on to it. It seems to have some valuable hints for "the space between thoughts", as well as soothing the inner conflict we all seem to feel at least occasionally. (I am feeling it repeatedly and strongly with my 6th period class!)
    I had been recently struck by a sentence in a commentary on THE BHAGAVAD GITA..."I am certain that by devotion to God I shall attain Nirvana through the illumination granted by His grace." Grace is a gift, and yet we will never receive it unless we are looking for it...preparing the ground in some way. It is somewhat like looking for the "ether" (the energy bodies) around birds and trees. Unless you learn to "shift your eyes" you will never see it. And unless you desire to see it, and believe it to be a part of your "reality", even the possibility is absent, and you don't even know that you are missing it. (or care, perhaps) But it is a lot to miss! In a tape that I was listening to today, Ravi Ravindra (professor of religion and physics at a university in Canada) was speaking about the power of "the name" of God...the "I AM" that occurs in the burning bush and that Jesus refers to. He proposed the idea that within that name resides the intersection of time and timelessness, and that to move toward understanding the true meaning of that name was the path to union. He proposes the idea that this is what Jesus was referring to when he said, "I am the way." translated as "I AM is the way." An interesting hypotheses, and worthy of some thought.
    I think that the illumination of grace is an effect of that power and therefore could be thought of as an experience of that same intersection. I think that also that intersection is the "thing that we are looking for in the space between thoughts", and also the key to understanding "nonbeing" or "beyond being" that is referred to in Nirvana. Some food for thought. I am so much enjoying my study of the Gita. More later. I love you.
Love, Lisa
(Sept. 19, 1994)